Some of my schizophrenic moody days are best summed up with a collection of words/phrases with little else to connect them: Weariness, sickness, general feelings of malaise, anger, partypartyHAPPYBIRTHDAYCLARA!, embarrassing fun, frustration, annoyance, fear of the future and my life, ibuprofen, being forlorn, feathery things in my hair, distraught, worry, my favourite birthday card that tells me life is a journey in spanish, MOTHERFUCKING FUCK THIS SHIT, amusement, misery, dreadful loneliness, delighted, never wanting anything to end, Barcelona, search, rain, planning, Dan Eldon, life's utter lack of poetry.

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Sometimes I wish all the pieces of my life would just fall into the right place.